The Noodle Compound

[kestegs]

I'm sure she's sorry you're not together anymore now!

[Noodle]

I know my ex's were briefly sorry.

[kestegs]

Nice of you to fix that for them.

[Noodle]

Nice of you to fix that for them.

Well, I'm a people person.

[Vivi]

Think of it as a dare. "I bet you can't swallow this . . ." I can't count how many times I've used that line.

Minds out of the gutter, people.

Would that be an African swallow?

[Noodle]

Would that be an African swallow?

Unladen, of course.

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[Vivi]

You know, there's much to say for how I deal with being afraid. I've suffered from panic attacks years ago, and being so close to the edge of anxiety for such a long time teaches you many things. How to stay calm, how to distract yourself, how to breathe to avoid hyperventilation.
I no longer suffer from panic attacks or anxiety attacks, no more than an average person.

I went to the hospital. Appearantly it was unclear whether I was going to get a mild aneasthetic. As it would have meant having to stay in the hospital for another 2 hours and arrange someone to pick me up (I don't mind being alone but sometimes it's painfully unpractical and lonely) I decided against it.

The examination was, to be honest, worse than I imagined. Bawling like a baby. I felt like I was being tortured, choking, every alarmbell in my body screaming. I tried to breathe as calmly as possible. I was glad a nice nurse was beside me. They said I did well but I don't feel I did.

Appearantly, my body so violently choking means I'm incredibly healthy. As you grow older, your choking reflex becomes less and less.

And then, after all this unpleasantness on my day off: all looks in perfect shape. No anomaly.
They didn't understand how that brought on more tears rather than less. The dissappointment hurts as much as my throat. For the latter I can take paracetamol, which does seem to help a bit.

I'm able to eat again, and I'm drinking a nice herbal tea to sooth my incredibly sore throat. But I feel drained and exhausted.

[Leopold Stotch]

Completely inapproperiate but "get to the bottom of it" made me chuckle somewhat. That's the other examination they might do....but not tomorrow.

I actually didn't mean it that way, lol! Until you pointed that out I didn't even realize what I said. ^^

Think of it as a dare. "I bet you can't swallow this . . ." I can't count how many times I've used that line.

Minds out of the gutter, people.

Sure you didn't mean it that way.

Sounds like you had a rough day, Viv. :(

[kestegs]

I'm so sorry, Vivi, that sounds awful :(

*hugs*

So is there a next step planned?

[Vivi]

No, just the appointment next week where the doctor will talk me through everything they didn't find.
Thanks everyone. I do feel very drained.